Being able to to handle the unexpected

Well today is my first day home with the kids! I am trying to keep us busy so that I do not dwell on the other things that are going on in my life but God always comes through and brings a little smile to me. We decided to go outside before it started raining so I put the two little ones in the wagon and went for a walk around the block. Well we went half way and started raining so I turned around went home walked up to the front door and even tough I left our front door unlocked I did not unlock the screen door (which has no key)! So here we are in the rain can't go anywhere but sit in the car because my car keys are in the house with my house keys! But if you know me then you know that I love the rain so it was nice to sit in the car and just watch the rain come down. I could have gotten upset cried (some more than I have already been) but instead we waited til it stopped raining. Here is the funny part............I thought hmmmm maybe for some odd reason the kitchen window is unlocked and I can climb through. So I left the kids in the car and ran around the back and low and behold it was unlocked. So I grabbed a patio chair and climb head first through the kitchen window. I am positive that my neighbors behind me were wondering what I was doing. So we are back in the house the kids are waiting lunch and soon it will be Sam's nap time. So I guess all the funny things that I used to post about our funny family drama will return now that I am home again. Have a great day all!!!

I just want to say thank you to those that have helped me tonite. I am just wondering why this is happening and I just have to trust that God has a plan and that I am protected from some of the things that are being said. I know that things will work out. And now I need to move on to spend the summer home with my kids and have a great summer getting together for play dates with friends and finding myself in God again. And maybe more time to get back to blogging again YAY!!!!

I am so excited because Nathan and I were invited into one of our church groups. I am really excited because we really need to back involved in fellowship. I can not wait to start the group in just a couple of weeks.

Not to be a Pain

Please if you read this and would like to help my cousins and I out we are trying to donate $1000.00 to MS. We are doing a walk on May 9th in Frankenmuth. Our Aunt has MS and I know that this means alot to her. I know that times are hard but even if you just give up one coffee or bottled water (plus it is good for earth week too) this week that would help. Send me an email if you are unable to donate on line and would like to send me a donation through the mail I will mail you a tax deduction form back. Thank you so much and let everyone you know to check out our Team Tag Page (our families last name is Tagliavia) Click on the title of this blog entry to get to our page!!!

Another Deep Entry

Today is a raining gloomy day inside and I feel that way myself. I love having a blog but lately I have not posted things because if certain people are reading it then I have to watch myself and that is really hard to do. Not that I do not want people to read it but any ways. I am feeling really crappy! I feel like I am following God and am where I am supposed to be but I feel like there is something I am missing ya know? I know for a fact that my life is filled with busyness that does at times include him I hate admitting it but better to be honest right? I feel like I am lacking very much with my relationship with God. Just a couple of years ago I was in awe and in love with God I had this amazing relationship where I would sit for hours seriously and pray and write in my prayer journal. I go back and read these and it brings me to tears knowing that I have lost that. I know it is there but what happened? (rhetorical questions people?) I miss him in my life like it was then I know all I have to do is get on my knees and he is there. There are some things going on in my life right now that I feel like I am supposed to still be involved in but I am uneasy all the time and questioning if I should be. I feel like if I stop what I am doing then I am being irresponsible to my family. But should I continue doing something that makes who God created me to be not there anymore? Or am I not submitting enough to him or looking to others to provide the fill I should be getting from him? I am confused and feeling a little alone right now? But I am reminded of a family summit with my kids at my church a couple of weeks ago where they all got shoe laces and where told to put them in their shoes and whenever they felt like they were alone in something that they just needed to look down and remember that they are never alone. I need to remember that no matter what God is with me even when I do not feel like he is!!

Not sure how to title this one....it has been a while since I have blogged. I am in one of those moods you know where you just feel like you are going through the motions. Things are really busy at work and at home. Sammy just turned two which is CRAZY! We have had birthday parties every weekend sometimes two a day and have three more this month. But it is a fun crazy. I am at work taking a break from the craziness and I feel like I want to blog about something but I am worried someone will read it that can not. I will just say that someone who is in my life now is bringing back memories from my past that scare me. It is not that this person is bad it is just that this persons paths have crossed that of someone who really caused serious harm to me in the past. Lately I have been dealing with this in different situations and it makes me question have I moved past this issue?? Is it normal to know that you have forgiven someone and moved on but then years later to deal with emotions again? Then I wonder if I am even questioning is that God telling me that I have unresolved issues? Or if you are someone who has been abused do you always have issues with it? Like certain smells or names or places bring it back? I have always struggled with nightmares and sometimes they are more intense then others and lately they are strong where I wake up and feel like I have not even slept. Hmmmmmmm
On another note our church is starting some new small groups called Pathways and we are really excited about joining a group soon. It makes me nervous though because we signed up to be invited into a group which makes me think of Gym in elementary school and being the last couple picked lol!! Seriously though I know that God will provide a group for us that will give us the chance to meet new people and be encouraged and encourage others. I am really excited for this. Maybe I should go back to work now..............