Feelings...

So I am not sure exactly where I heard this but it stuck with me...we can never trust our feelings because they are just that feelings...Not sure if this hits anyone else or just me? I always went off of my feelings when things were happening in my life. I feel happy so I must be...I am feeling hungry I must want to eat...I feel scared I should run. But there were many times in my life that I felt safe and in reality I wasn't or I felt happy and I was not happy at all. The last couple of weeks I have had to remember this phrase more than ever. Things are hard right now we are learning a new way of life and honestly it is probably the hardest thing I have ever walked through. I am messing up on a daily basis on how to handle things but one thing I know for sure is that Nathan knows I am not perfect just like I know he is not perfect and neither of us claim to be. I struggle with my feelings and letting them dictate how I should be in my life. I have a choice if I want to be angry just because something that is said makes me feel that way or I have a choice to have a pity party for myself just because I feel sad about something. I am an emotional person on sooo many levels and at times I think I have let that stop me from doing certain things because I am afraid of my FEELINGS getting hurt or FEELING rejection or FEELING alone. See the pattern?? I know that this time is a time of growing in my faith and my love with my husband and learning about myself on a level I always dreamed of and who said that trials are easy? To grow means growing pains and this is a time of major growth for us and I am going to just continue to give it to God and when I mess up give it to God again. I love the alone time with God even it is in the middle of the night when I can't sleep :)